On drugs...

I can't believe how something, someone or some other things could changed you entirely. Your perceptions and perspectives are tangled in between in your mind. How dare that person intruded your privacy of thinking and turn it upside down without your permission. How rude that person on letting you feel the feeling of joy, love, fear and life itself that yourself never seems to be able to develop those into your own heart. How was I be able to hear that distant symphony that I longed to hear and be able to recognize it way from afar. How the existence of the soft presence lullaby me into the journey of living my life in being a human again that I have never thoght I could turn out to be. It was something beautiful and intriguing compared to all those things that should mean something to the world. It was something that I own or so I thought and believe that no one else might have it or maybe own it differently in way that I had it. What a pretty sight of various colours that filled the air that I breathe in and breathe out and how the stars extra sparkled into my night light. There is always a reason for me now just to let go and see the outcomes of the step that I dare to take and to live it in my life. No more stop signs or distractions that could lead me astray again though the confusion seems to be a fun place to be sometimes. A vulnerable times sound so appealing as it let you fall whenever it may be and a guidance will always be there to catch you again. I wonder if I have been given choices again on how I could change the way that I loathe and screaming silently inside, asking for something impossible, I'm not going to choose it over anything. The impossible is mine now. How complicated life seems to be on the surface of our faces but life never been easy too underneath either way and it always a mix, for me. :]