HOLIDAYS

Yes, holidays again!!! Haha. For all the techears-to-be, happy holiday! Its good to be finally home. Ok, so IPIK wasn't that far but still, I was not at home. Oh, so many things has happened to me. Good things that is. Something that I have never thought I would do. Something new and still the same old, same old me. Heh. Finals sucks. Big time. I mean, I don't know who sucks more, me or the paper. Ok, I did answered all. So, it must be the paper then. LOL. Hmm, what else? Nothing interesting happened. My life as a college student now is practically boring and I don't know why. Aren't we supposed to enjoy our youth through college's life? Sigh. Seriously, it was dead bored and I died out of the boredom! There in my college, I just couldn't find anybody, like in that thousands of numbers of educated people, none of them could be related to me in any way. Ugh. I couldn't even find anyone who share the same passion of my obsessive love for books. Ok, figure of speech. But the point is, it makes me brain dead when you couldn't talk about things you know or like and when you do, they just didn't get you. Take example of my classmates, girls. All they ever talked about is boys, getting phone numbers from someone, going out and yada, yada, yada! I don't do that. Ok, I get that. See through your eyes, I was such a boring person but hey, good books, good music and all of other things besides those petty stuff are way worth debating. Sigh. It was just hard for me. Well, what to do then? I have another 5 wasted years there and there is nothing I could do but to live in isolation. Ok, that is dramatic. 5 wasted years but to live my life to the fullest. I will not let small things like that kill me so easily. Still, I wish somebody was there to get me through. Flesh and blood. This goes to hidayah. I know you will there for me, babe...but you are still just, on the phone. I wish you too, could be with me, flesh and blood. Well, I think, enough for today. Hah. I am crazy anyway. :]

It's been awhile.

It's been awhile since my last post. Been lazying these days. Yeah, like you people care to read my blog. Heh. Well, I've managed to write 2 essays in that periods of time. One is complete and another one is still in progress. Lazying, remebered? Both are about someone and I'm pretty sure she did not have the patience to wait but have to anyway. Haha. Just Something that I've thought of and have to write it down? Nonetheless, still, I have fun doing it. Maybe I'll post it in my next post or whatever. :]

The LAST book of the series. Yeah, I own it! Breaking Dawn.

Finally, the time has come. I got the book! Yes, thanks to Hidayah and my new acquaintance, Firdaus....cute....hahahahaha. All the way from Kajang to my 'dearest' IPIK. I'm sooooo happy to see her again. Such a long time. Well, I better get back to the book. It's definitely irresistable! Yummy! :]

Why oh why

Well, two weeks of.....i dont know, tortured days are finally over! Wow, you wouldnt believe it how hard the life on the other side of the grass are. And I do. And it will continue until the day you die. Luckily, I've met a few, actually more than a few people that I thought I would never come across in my so insignificant life. It was amazing how different and how odd things can turned out to be. Its just happened. To me too. It changed the way I see things and the way I my mind works through out the process since I've been there. Somehow, it makes ready to face anything and nothing will ever bring me down. I'm whole new person now with the same originality of me inside. For that, if you jugde me for how I looks from the outside rather than try to go deep down into my pink little heart, I'll just smile to your shallowness.

Having new things doesnt mean you need to throw away the yesterday. Because the yesterday always reminding on how you used to be before. Its classic as they say, and classics never die. So, cherish both as you go along the way. You never know when you might need one of both.

This experiences has given me so much more in this life and it will never stop until I closed my eyes. :]

Orientasi - orientasi IPIK

1. My personal hell on earth.
2. Hot and pretty senior. Haha. Enjoying the view, eh?
3. During the orientation, I cursed all the time silently in my head:P
4. Gain useful knowledge.
5. I really, REALLY hate aerobic when I was force to do it.
6. Met new interesting people along the way.
7. 24 hours there are just not enough!
8. Finally, feel like somewhere I belong.
9. I've been pushed mentally and emotionally too far! ARGGH!!!
10. I guessed everything that happened, happens for a reason. I was mad, sad and totally pissed off. But in the end, it was nothing compared to what I gained in the process. Thank you. To all of you. :]

Either way.....its still hard.

I'm off to college now. Well, starting this 14th. For a second, I just can't believe it. I mean, I still eye candy on the school boys pretending I am too a school student which is kinda sick if you ask me. Haha. After this, no more uniform (maybe on the first week), no more spoon-fed, no more time to sleep and sleep and sleep, just me. A few new friends, maybe and life on assignments!! This is the part when your whole life changed. I was always a homie girl and now going away for a really long time. Although it wasn't that far, just a distance between me and my family, my home and my playful kittens, I'm going to be in home sick mode for always. Forever. Nonetheless, I'm still looking forward for this whole new journey. I'm going to make it as far as I could and thinking of it as a redemption of what I didn't get last time. No more failure. No more. I'm going to strive for the very best and make all my dreams come true. I'm going to be one of those living proof that dreams do come true. Inshallah. :]