I HATE IT!

one minute u love it, another hour later of torturing and abusing, u just want to let it go. i am not one of those patient people who cud works with details and yet, here i am, screwing myself out, and convinced that im actually an art person. sigh..... ugh! :[

Oopps...HE DID IT AGAIN!

OMG!!!!! ok, its scary....this time, a little bit more humour which is not so him. waaaaah, totally weird!!!!

My dad has been invaded by the China aliens!!!

[he's currently in China, outstation...isn't it obvious?]

huhu. :]

I'm in love with my dad.

weyy, hoho. it's been awhile since the last time. busy, busy art/english/bahasa teacher! heh. i am currently busy with ujian amali seni visual, yeah, messing up with acrylic, oil paint on canvas...big deal...4meh!! can't wait to finally paint on canvas though i would be evaluate to do so by outside lecturers. yikes! wish me luck!

oh, the tittle huh? what the heck? it's nothing. my dad did something unexpectedly funny. 4 me laa... he just replied i love you too! in his sms to me. yeahh...cliche? but this time, it was different. not that i hate him, i just didnt love him enuf than i shud. but now, it seems that, i am matured enuf to love him, to see him as my dad. that sms practically made me smiled a huge smile the whole day tru. i feel like crying pon ade, touched. hahaha. isn't weird? a father saying i love you too to his daughter shud be common, butttt...not 4 me. my case was different. i feel a little child discovering new things. ok, this might be something biase je 4 you but 4 me, its a huge thing. no, i am not emotionally abused or whatever those kind of abusive act, it's rather a long story. or there was no story after all.

i guess he's a guy and guys is complex? ohhh, i wonder how if im in love with a guy? haha, still single meh and never been in love pon. so, it would be a new thing again 4 me. why oh why? unlucky? i don't think so. i think im going to love that i get a chance to experience love at a matured age. why not? who said you can't be funny, childish or playful at an older age than 17? i am all that and still are and will be...always. plus the seriousness and maturity, love will be beautiful. im looking 4 the 1st and the last. if that is impossible, then offer me forever, i will be true. i have no desire to play around, no time laaa.... hahaha, ok. dah la tu kan. love cease to be beautiful when it cease to be a secret. please, suprise me... :]

Tagged!

1. Apakah benda yang paling penting dalam hidup kamu?
family, money,(come first?) friends, myself, my books and all my other possesions that i own. haha.

2. Apakah benda terakhir yang kamu beli dengan wang sendiri?
a cotton white dress...finally.

3. Dimanakah tempat impian perkahwinan kamu?
i'll get married anywhere baby if you are with me....huhu

4. Berapa lama hubungan kamu berkekalan?
blom lagi...tgh mencari...hahahaha.

5. Adakah anda dilamun cinta?
yes, towards Allah (stolen from Mirrah), umm, maybe but no one needs to know kan?

6. Dimanakah restoran terakhir kamu makan malam?
at the chilli's with my family in KLCC

7. Namakan buku terakhir yang kamu beli?
what my gilrfriend doesn't know

8. Apakah nama penuh kamu?
Nur Yasmin Ahmad Sapian

9. Kamu lebih senang ngan mak atau ayah?
my umi....

10. Namakan seseorang yang kamu ingin jumpa untuk pertama kalinya dalam hidup anda?
i wanna meet him!

11. Sebutkan 8 nama sahabat yang paling rapat dengan kamu?
hidayah ashburn
mirrah
nadia(yela, aku bkn sahabat ko paling rapat la kan, tp aku ade ko sbg sahabat rapat aku so ko ade kt dlm senarai ni....)
azim
ili
aina, aisyah, hafizah (coursemate, roomate (aina) and housemate to be)

12. Adakah kamu mencuci pakaian kamu sendiri?
yep, when at the hostel...its kinda fun...huhu

13. Tempat yang paling seronok kamu mahu pergi?
don't care as long as im with him....

14. Butirkan 5 perkara tentang orang yang tag kamu?
nadboob:-
annoying
irritating
bothersome
loud
but mostly she's warm hearted and supportive(i agreed with u mirrah!)

mirrah:-
hillarious
chumel
sometimes her looks cud kill, so does words...(sound of the sword slashing!)
always there
always smile those sweet smile...

15. 8 perkara yang amat saya gilai?
quotes and words
workaholic
extreme sports (im trying!)
kitten
dresses
lingerie
art shop
love

16. Pelukan atau ciuman?
both...hugs and kisses are both turn on isnt it?

17. 8 perkataan yang sering diucapkan?
alhamdulillah...
astaghfirullah
okayy...
wtf?! (just the acronym la!)
shit! (its getting less but still there...yes2, im trying...!)
fxck! (used too, it lessen now...somehow)
awww....
baik, puan...(either act of annoying or an agreement, i just use both with the same atonation. *shrug*)

18. 8 buah buku yang paling baru baca?
i've been longing to read but no time....so, so far none!

19. 8 lagu yang saya boleh dengar berulang kali?
just dance - lady gaga
vincent (starry, starry night) - josh groban
what hurts the most - rascal flatt
strangers - hilary duff
why not- hilary duff
i love rock and roll - britney spears
have you really ever love a woman - bryan adams
god gave me you - brian white
dear god- avenged sevenfold
(more...who cares right?)

20. Mari Men-Tag 8 orang lain
hidayah abu bakar..this is your responsibility now...huhu.

How far....

How far could you go for that someone you've known that is apparently not good for you but you know that person better and nothing else matter?

How far would go for that someone who's been there for you but not having faith in theirselves to be strong enough to face everything that life has been given?

How far should you go for that someone through thick and thin and just stick with them, go through it all together till the end even it might cost you?

How far will you go for that someone you...love? :]

On drugs...

I can't believe how something, someone or some other things could changed you entirely. Your perceptions and perspectives are tangled in between in your mind. How dare that person intruded your privacy of thinking and turn it upside down without your permission. How rude that person on letting you feel the feeling of joy, love, fear and life itself that yourself never seems to be able to develop those into your own heart. How was I be able to hear that distant symphony that I longed to hear and be able to recognize it way from afar. How the existence of the soft presence lullaby me into the journey of living my life in being a human again that I have never thoght I could turn out to be. It was something beautiful and intriguing compared to all those things that should mean something to the world. It was something that I own or so I thought and believe that no one else might have it or maybe own it differently in way that I had it. What a pretty sight of various colours that filled the air that I breathe in and breathe out and how the stars extra sparkled into my night light. There is always a reason for me now just to let go and see the outcomes of the step that I dare to take and to live it in my life. No more stop signs or distractions that could lead me astray again though the confusion seems to be a fun place to be sometimes. A vulnerable times sound so appealing as it let you fall whenever it may be and a guidance will always be there to catch you again. I wonder if I have been given choices again on how I could change the way that I loathe and screaming silently inside, asking for something impossible, I'm not going to choose it over anything. The impossible is mine now. How complicated life seems to be on the surface of our faces but life never been easy too underneath either way and it always a mix, for me. :]