hello my dearest blog with no reader. haha. i've been happy, depressed, alone, cheerful, having worst and better days this year. my parents were away for awhile, kinda miss them. oh, i miss them a lot. now, they have returned and i have never been happy! i have spent their money accordingly, i think. taking care of 6 siblings is a hardwork yeh. i had to cook, which i'm not very good at, but so far, everyone is alive. trying to keep the house clean is a challenge when you have your 2-16 years old brothers and sisters as the opponents. hah. and harrassment from the 'outsiders' never fail to make me feel like straggling them in very cold water. yes, yes, yes. for 1 month and 10 days, i have been a guardian for my little siblings. it helps me loving them a little bit more, makes me think about my responsibility towards others and just surviving this life trip and learnt the value of family and sticking together. you only have yourself and your family in the end when the others tend to do the same thing too. ok, enough about that. here's my 2010 new year resolutions that i've come up with. i've decided that starting this year, i want to have my list of resolutions according to my age. haha. with exceptations. hahah.
2010 new year resolution
1)improve my private life
-ok, this is bad, i may sound desprate but hey, a girl could always dream, right?
2)more artwork
-probably working on sketch and realism, and also colourful painting on little canvas, a collection. so my house, one day would be so colourful and so awesome. wink2.
3)buy and read 20 books and do reviews
-granted, turning 20, a big change, 20 resolutions, 20 books and reviews. i always got lucky with books i pick.
4)DSLR camera as a birthday gift for myself
-i always get myself a gift on my birthday, huh more or less, but this year, an
expensive one. but if u want to suprise me, let me know. wink2
5)celebrate for being 20
-hmm, this one, i want to do something, big maybe but i don't know yet. something make my life worth living after 20 years of my life.
6)achieve something, anything big this year
-related, please see above
7)i want to celebrate upon every achievement, even the smallest that worth celebrating
-brownies for breakfast, the most creamy, chocolest cute cupcake 3 days in a row, ice cream after 2 am with movies, if the next day is holiday. you name it, sweet.
8)enjoy my life, my way, to the fullest
-life is too short, might as well enjoy it.
9)give myself eveything that i deserved.
-DSLR camera, good books, enough rest, high pointer, happiness.
10)broaden my horizon, open to new things and be positive with everything.
-this one, i always fail, misrably. let's try again.
11)nailed my degree year 1 with highest pointer.
-well, i just have to work my ass off.
12)need to get out of the house and start living like everybody else
-yeah, i still live with my parents and my little siblings, yeah, home sweet home. ok, maybe, probably, this year i'll try.
13)Improve my way of life, change for better.
-this is between me and God.
14)Go greener.
-i tried recycling and i sucked. this year, that and plastic bags no more.
15)learn to ignore and said no.
-a weakness of mine. for having so much of compassion in the wrong situation.
16)learn to accept rejection and cope with failure so it would motivate me to start again.
-haha. egoistical.
17)learn to let go and get over those stupid things
-this one has giving me a hell of a hard time to move on.
18)be a good teacher like mom.
-mana jatuhnya kuah, kalau tak ke nasi
19)to always be there even if it hurts.
-it's a long process and it always makes me wonder if i was really there and why it has to hurt.
20)i hope to get through all of these changes and still be true to myself.
-changes could be good.
late enrty:
i haven't watch NEW MOON yet, boo-hoo, big deal. so, it came down to this. if i'm not going to watch new moon, so i will not watch eclipse and breaking dawn. yeah, well maybe one day, i'll go and buy the whole saga dvd duluxe edition, sit down with my homemade popcorn and watch the whole thing on my 55' plasma TV, alone. yeah, one day. or maybe, if this is possible, i want to rent a movie theater, popcorns and free time. hehe.larger screen. besar punyer!
am i gonna jinx my new year by making my new year resolutions public? nah, i'm not that strict. lol. :]
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Sunday, December 27, 2009
2009!
It's almost new year again. Time does fly faster, quicker, swiftly... oh well, there's nothing you can do anyway. so, i've been up with the usual. i've done all of these during my sem break for this year. let's just say, my time is well spent. and a few back then, when i was in my 2nd sem, i had to do painting and that frog for my english lecturer. this one has the funny story and i gave them names. hah. then there's sculpture for 3rd sem.
for all of those colourful painting, let's just say i was experimenting with colours, subjects, positions, etc, etc, etc. i figured out how to use art masking fluid and love it! it did good and bad, but i managed to fix it. i'll show later with pictures.
i like all of it, to be honest. not to be vain, but self-motivate. i enjoyed doing it, as it takes my mind away from things that i don't want to know. and its very simple, even you can do it. all you need is time, brushes, colours, paper or canvas and an imagination. each of it doesn't take much time, probably because im using small canvas, which is very convinient. most of it i finished it within a day, if i just stay put and finish it until i gain headache. lol. but it was fun and it satisfied me to see the result. well, it might not be van gogh or da vinci or picasso, but it's a starter. i do like art and painting is one of it. i would like to try new things, new method, new media like oil colour or pastel. or bigger canvas or paint on various surface.
it seems that, these days, people paint or do artwork because it means something, anything, deep meaning or just surface. trying to express their opinion or thoughts through art and that's cool. but mine, all of these are just random, things? that i tried to paint. like i said, experimenting. maybe some of it has their own meaning, or maybe some of it just plain paintings. eek, i don't know, you'll be the judge. so, tell me that i wasted my money and time doing this, but for me, it's called self-learning and i'm learning something from it and i wish to produce more. so for 2010, expect to see more of these, maybe even better, as you learnt to be better and grew more experienced with time. maybe i develop my own style and flair in my artworks, or finally found a way to express myself through this medium and that would be awesome. haha.
yeah, i figure out that if you just sit around and do nothing, you'll have nothing in the end. so here i am, doing things that i could do, my strongest point, mum was right. even though i like science and stuff, i just couldn't pull it through. while i can't mixed the chemicals, calculate the workdone, i sure can mixed the colours and get it bright and right and paint it done. umm, yeah. lol.
a few that is shown here has already given as gifts to my love ones. that's the cool thing when you can be creative with things, you never died of ideas. i always love giving suprises to them but hate when it falls on mine. and another few of these will also become presents for them for next year birthdays. guess which one that you'll get. ok, so here's the pictures and enjoy.
oh, note the sketches, it's still rough, i'm just not good at it, yet. i tried, the potrait of my mum, it's slightly different. how's the saying goes, practice make perfect, yeah, i'm working on it.
like my lecturer, pn. shuhadah once said, there are people are born to an artist, some of them are train to be one. i wonder which one i am?
for all of those colourful painting, let's just say i was experimenting with colours, subjects, positions, etc, etc, etc. i figured out how to use art masking fluid and love it! it did good and bad, but i managed to fix it. i'll show later with pictures.
i like all of it, to be honest. not to be vain, but self-motivate. i enjoyed doing it, as it takes my mind away from things that i don't want to know. and its very simple, even you can do it. all you need is time, brushes, colours, paper or canvas and an imagination. each of it doesn't take much time, probably because im using small canvas, which is very convinient. most of it i finished it within a day, if i just stay put and finish it until i gain headache. lol. but it was fun and it satisfied me to see the result. well, it might not be van gogh or da vinci or picasso, but it's a starter. i do like art and painting is one of it. i would like to try new things, new method, new media like oil colour or pastel. or bigger canvas or paint on various surface.
it seems that, these days, people paint or do artwork because it means something, anything, deep meaning or just surface. trying to express their opinion or thoughts through art and that's cool. but mine, all of these are just random, things? that i tried to paint. like i said, experimenting. maybe some of it has their own meaning, or maybe some of it just plain paintings. eek, i don't know, you'll be the judge. so, tell me that i wasted my money and time doing this, but for me, it's called self-learning and i'm learning something from it and i wish to produce more. so for 2010, expect to see more of these, maybe even better, as you learnt to be better and grew more experienced with time. maybe i develop my own style and flair in my artworks, or finally found a way to express myself through this medium and that would be awesome. haha.
yeah, i figure out that if you just sit around and do nothing, you'll have nothing in the end. so here i am, doing things that i could do, my strongest point, mum was right. even though i like science and stuff, i just couldn't pull it through. while i can't mixed the chemicals, calculate the workdone, i sure can mixed the colours and get it bright and right and paint it done. umm, yeah. lol.
a few that is shown here has already given as gifts to my love ones. that's the cool thing when you can be creative with things, you never died of ideas. i always love giving suprises to them but hate when it falls on mine. and another few of these will also become presents for them for next year birthdays. guess which one that you'll get. ok, so here's the pictures and enjoy.
oh, note the sketches, it's still rough, i'm just not good at it, yet. i tried, the potrait of my mum, it's slightly different. how's the saying goes, practice make perfect, yeah, i'm working on it.
like my lecturer, pn. shuhadah once said, there are people are born to an artist, some of them are train to be one. i wonder which one i am?
'Terry' 
this is BEFORE, you see the messiness of the colours, that's the masking fluid. its prevent the colour from touching the canvas. well, sort of.
'The 4th Season'this is AFTER, see no more smudges. with a little editing here and there, it becomes more refined. haha.
trying to finish this up. gonna take quite some times.
happened accidently. i was like trying to draw figures, but only could have them from the back. oh, it's a dream.
'Mine'
'Colours'
'Tulips'
trying to finish this up. gonna take quite some times.
happened accidently. i was like trying to draw figures, but only could have them from the back. oh, it's a dream.
'Mine''Colours'playing with colours. end up looking like this, so i thought, hey,this is fun.
'Tulips'another masking fluid work. its sort of messy at first, then i managed to fixed it.
'Grow'
'Grow'this is actually the first one im using that fluid and this one for mum for her new office and her 44th birthday.
'Either Way'
yeah, this is for you.
yup, the frogs with names. done for my lecturer. i got to keep frankie. 
'Roses for Van Gogh'
'Either Way'yeah, this is for you.
yup, the frogs with names. done for my lecturer. i got to keep frankie. 
'Roses for Van Gogh'don't mind the tittle. i was exaggerating. i made this one for someone special before she left.
isn't it so obvious?
isn't it so obvious?ok, the 1st picture was the one that's actually finished. the 2nd, after it was framed. the 3rd, the one that i have right now which i am pretty lazy to finish it. sigh. :]
Friday, December 25, 2009
did you?
you wanna know something about me? the truth? always hurt.
i am, not what i am.
i'm holding my deepest, darkest secrets and never let it slip away.
i am evil, useless and i don't deserved anything.
if you only knew,
i am very much ashamed of myself.
i pretend and living in denial.
if you only knew, if they only knew.
sometimes, it's too much, it makes me cry.
it's sinful and how i hate it.
who would have thought.
if you just knew, you wouldn't look at me at the same way again, i'm sure.
it's a burden that i created, no one to blame.
but i am afraid to tell, or even to share
i cant' tell, i can't tell
some things are meant to be unspoken
i wish for better, i wish i would change
i wish i don't have to tell you what it is
so please don't ask me again
i hope it would just end one day
i am, not what i am.
i'm holding my deepest, darkest secrets and never let it slip away.
i am evil, useless and i don't deserved anything.
if you only knew,
i am very much ashamed of myself.
i pretend and living in denial.
if you only knew, if they only knew.
sometimes, it's too much, it makes me cry.
it's sinful and how i hate it.
who would have thought.
if you just knew, you wouldn't look at me at the same way again, i'm sure.
it's a burden that i created, no one to blame.
but i am afraid to tell, or even to share
i cant' tell, i can't tell
some things are meant to be unspoken
i wish for better, i wish i would change
i wish i don't have to tell you what it is
so please don't ask me again
i hope it would just end one day
Sunday, October 11, 2009
From all sorts of direction
Wow, it's funny how people live that way. I mean, some of it is ok, but some of them, it's just plain weird. I have been one of those people who other people turn to to tell me things that they cant't tell anyone. Me? A faithful listener as I don't have anything to tell. Yes, it is cliche and its about love. I wasn't lucky enough to experience that, yet but I'm sure sooner or later tho and I considered myself lucky and worthy because oh, I know it all and people trust me. So, I have listened to a lot of stories, experiences, lies and truth. Some are pure shocking and some are pleasantly suprising and some are just funny. I would say I did learn a lot from what I heard, that it makes sense of everything that happen, because of the action taken and the sequences. It always leave me smiling when I remembered about THEIR STORIES, blush suddenly when i think about THEIR STORIES if it was too...u know. It's cool, different people, different story to tell, different events, different emotions, different people involved, it's fun to know about secrets and dirty dishes. Haha. I didn't ask for it ok, THEY came to me and I accepted with open ears and open mind and heart. I am not the one to judge, tho I do make my own perceptions and views and keep it to myself. As far as you concern, I didnt say anything about taking them to the grave but you won't caught anyone knowing about YOU and YOUR STORIES because sometimes when the memory box and perceptions area has been filled and overflow, I need a release. I have to talk about it and share my views, just a little. But really, what gets me is how people live it that way. I always found that very disturbing and funny and lets me wonder a bit how am I going to be if I were in that situation. How can I changed it so it won't have to be that way or something? Heavy stuff. LOL. But it was refreshing and good, I guess. A nice way to put it. :]
Friday, October 2, 2009
Scarborough fair
Scarborough Fair by Simon and Garfunkel
Are you going to Scarborough Fair
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme
Remember me to one who lives there
She once was a true love of mine
Tell her to make me a cambric shirt
(On the side of a hill in the deep forest green)
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme
(Tracing of sparrow on snowcrested brown)
Without no seams nor needle work
(Blankets and bedclothes the child of the mountain)
Then she'll be a true love of mine
(Sleeps unaware of the clarion call)
Tell her to find me an acre of land
(On the side of a hill a sprinkling of leaves)
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme
(Washes the grave with silvery tears)
Between the salt water and the sea strands
(A soldier cleans and polishes a gun)
Then she'll be a true love of mine
Tell her to reap it with a sickle of leather
(War bellows blazing in scarlet battalions)
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme
(Generals order their soldiers to kill)
And gather it all in a bunch of heather
(And to fight for a cause they've long ago forgotten)
Then she'll be a true love of mine
Are you going to Scarborough Fair
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme
Remember me to one who lives there
She once was a true love of mine
* * * * * * * * * * * * * *
Scarborough Fair by Sarah Brightman
Are you going to Scarborough Fair?
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme
Remember me to one who lives there
He once was a true love of mine
Tell him to make me a cambric shirt
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme
Without no seams nor needle work
Then he'll be a true love of mine
Have him wash it in yonder dry well
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme
Where ne'er a drop of water e'er fell
And then he'll be a true love of mine
Tell him to find me an acre of land
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyem
Between salt water and the sea strands
Then he'll be a true love of mine
Tell him to reap it with a sickle of leather
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme
And gather it all in a bunch of heather
Then he'll be a true love of mine
Are you going to Scarborough Fair?
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme
Remember me to one who lives there
He once was a true love of mine
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
The Elfin Knight
Are you going to Scarborough Fair?
Parsley, sage,rosemary and thyme
Remember me to one who lives there
She must be a true love of mine
Tell her she'll sleep in a goose-feather bed
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme
Tell her I swear she'll have nothing to dread
She must be a true love of mine
Tell her tomorrow her answer make known
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme
What e'er she may say I'll not leave her alone
She must be a true love of mine
Her answer it came in a week and a day
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme
I'm sorry, good sir, I must say thee nay
I'll bot be a true love of thine
From the sting of my curse she can never be free
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme
Unless she unravels my riddlings three
She will be a true love of mine
Tell her to make me a magical shirt
Parsley, sage, rosemaryand thyme
Without any seam or needlework
Else she'll be a true love of mine
Tell her to find me an acre of land
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme
Between the salt water and the sea water
Else she'll be a true love of mine
Tell her to plow it with just a goat's horn
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme
And sow it all over with one grain of corn
Else's shell be a true love of mine
And her daughters forever possessions of mine
* * * * * * * * * * * *
The Lovers's Promises
Scarborough Fair
Are you going to Scarborough Fair?
Parsley, sage,rosemary and thyme
Remember me to one who lives there
Always he'll be a true love of mine
Tell him I've made him a magical shirt
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme
Without any seam or needlework
Always he'll be a true love of mine
Tell her she's found me an acre of land
Parslet, sage, rosemary and thyme
Between the salt water and the sea strand
That makes her a true love mine
Tell her she's plowed it with just a goat's horn
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme
She's sowed it all over with one grain of corn
Yes, she is a true love of mine
And her daughter forever a daughter of mine
Are you going to Scarborough Fair?
Parsley, saage, rosemary and thyme
Remember us to all who live there
Ours will be true love for all time
*I can't stop humming and slow dancing to this song, addicted and wish I could have all the song's versions*
Ohhh, this is so haunting.....me. A story. A curse, three impossible tasks to solve or I'll be yours to own without my consent?
Do read 'Impossible' by Nancy Werlin and do listen to 'Scarborough Fair'. I promise you a true love because that's the only thing that can save you from him. And true love it is... :
Are you going to Scarborough Fair
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme
Remember me to one who lives there
She once was a true love of mine
Tell her to make me a cambric shirt
(On the side of a hill in the deep forest green)
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme
(Tracing of sparrow on snowcrested brown)
Without no seams nor needle work
(Blankets and bedclothes the child of the mountain)
Then she'll be a true love of mine
(Sleeps unaware of the clarion call)
Tell her to find me an acre of land
(On the side of a hill a sprinkling of leaves)
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme
(Washes the grave with silvery tears)
Between the salt water and the sea strands
(A soldier cleans and polishes a gun)
Then she'll be a true love of mine
Tell her to reap it with a sickle of leather
(War bellows blazing in scarlet battalions)
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme
(Generals order their soldiers to kill)
And gather it all in a bunch of heather
(And to fight for a cause they've long ago forgotten)
Then she'll be a true love of mine
Are you going to Scarborough Fair
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme
Remember me to one who lives there
She once was a true love of mine
* * * * * * * * * * * * * *
Scarborough Fair by Sarah Brightman
Are you going to Scarborough Fair?
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme
Remember me to one who lives there
He once was a true love of mine
Tell him to make me a cambric shirt
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme
Without no seams nor needle work
Then he'll be a true love of mine
Have him wash it in yonder dry well
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme
Where ne'er a drop of water e'er fell
And then he'll be a true love of mine
Tell him to find me an acre of land
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyem
Between salt water and the sea strands
Then he'll be a true love of mine
Tell him to reap it with a sickle of leather
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme
And gather it all in a bunch of heather
Then he'll be a true love of mine
Are you going to Scarborough Fair?
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme
Remember me to one who lives there
He once was a true love of mine
* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
The Elfin Knight
Are you going to Scarborough Fair?
Parsley, sage,rosemary and thyme
Remember me to one who lives there
She must be a true love of mine
Tell her she'll sleep in a goose-feather bed
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme
Tell her I swear she'll have nothing to dread
She must be a true love of mine
Tell her tomorrow her answer make known
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme
What e'er she may say I'll not leave her alone
She must be a true love of mine
Her answer it came in a week and a day
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme
I'm sorry, good sir, I must say thee nay
I'll bot be a true love of thine
From the sting of my curse she can never be free
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme
Unless she unravels my riddlings three
She will be a true love of mine
Tell her to make me a magical shirt
Parsley, sage, rosemaryand thyme
Without any seam or needlework
Else she'll be a true love of mine
Tell her to find me an acre of land
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme
Between the salt water and the sea water
Else she'll be a true love of mine
Tell her to plow it with just a goat's horn
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme
And sow it all over with one grain of corn
Else's shell be a true love of mine
And her daughters forever possessions of mine
* * * * * * * * * * * *
The Lovers's Promises
Scarborough Fair
Are you going to Scarborough Fair?
Parsley, sage,rosemary and thyme
Remember me to one who lives there
Always he'll be a true love of mine
Tell him I've made him a magical shirt
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme
Without any seam or needlework
Always he'll be a true love of mine
Tell her she's found me an acre of land
Parslet, sage, rosemary and thyme
Between the salt water and the sea strand
That makes her a true love mine
Tell her she's plowed it with just a goat's horn
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme
She's sowed it all over with one grain of corn
Yes, she is a true love of mine
And her daughter forever a daughter of mine
Are you going to Scarborough Fair?
Parsley, saage, rosemary and thyme
Remember us to all who live there
Ours will be true love for all time
*I can't stop humming and slow dancing to this song, addicted and wish I could have all the song's versions*
Ohhh, this is so haunting.....me. A story. A curse, three impossible tasks to solve or I'll be yours to own without my consent?
Do read 'Impossible' by Nancy Werlin and do listen to 'Scarborough Fair'. I promise you a true love because that's the only thing that can save you from him. And true love it is... :
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Sculpture>conclusion
I never promise you a rose garden.... but i do promise you this right? So, this is it. My metal s.crap, a sculpture. haih, not easy, but not impossible either. i spent it all right there, this baby. well, at least it doesnt turn out bad, it could be worse if, if ,if.... well, there's a lot of pictures but so little number of bars of my internet connection [slow stupid uploading moment] but oh well, enjoy. suddenly i do hoping of getting an big fat A'ss for this. Or else. I hereby, naming him Terry cuz i dunno, its kinda look like a Terry and the tittle would be 'Fallen Fly'.
Friday, September 25, 2009
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Sculpture>introduction
Salam, oh yes. im on holiday but not so oh-holiday-yay! thing anymore. assignments bersepah-sepah minta diberi perhatian, ada arca yang perlu 'dihidupkan'. haih. hell-idays. oh well, i've been busy with what? What else? the freakin sculpture! ok, i have to admit, it was a worth well moment to see it grow but the prosess? my lady hands are ruined, [haha] surrounded by metals and aluminium and hard hardware. thank God i am still a girl at the end of the day. huhu. been taking pictures of me working my ass off for this thing to get A++++!!!! Amin. yeah, will be posting them from day one till the end of the week to see how it work out. i'll say, not bad. hah! :]
Saturday, August 15, 2009
Fictionate
Ok, this is something I've written for my group task, like a long time ago. Supposely, it's a group work, but you know how it is when working with people, so this was written out of the emergency so the lecturer won't burst our bubble. Haih, so we've been given a few words and name to work with[ the bold one].
He Did What He Did Best.
Yusry watched Faezah sleep peacefully like an angel besides him, soundless. Such a naïve brave young girl to trust a criminal, thought Yusry as he played with her hair. But she didn’t know that. And Yusry was this charming clever lad who would smile to every woman that he met and for that, they would face death. He lured them into his web with just an interesting conversation plus a gentleman attitude as the women fell in love with him completely, he would do what he did best.
* * * * * * * * *
Faezah met Yusry when she was dining alone for lunch at a restaurant 4 month ago. Yusry was only a table away. She did notice he was gazing in her way when she gave back a positive response to him. She smiled and Yusry headed for her table. ‘Hi, may I sit here?’ Yusry asked. ‘Sure, go ahead’, she answered, smiling. Faezah was checking out his features as he sat. His face was boyish with a nice high check bones and his body was muscular too. He must be ‘the working out guy’, thought Faezah. ‘I’m Yusry from Tenom, Sabah.’ Yusry said with a smile as he held his hand out for her. ‘I’m Faezah, from Kuala Lumpur. You are from Tenom, Sabah? Why, that such a long way down. Business?’ She asked as she took his inviting hand. ‘Kind of.’ Yusry smiled. They talked about lot of things over their lunch. Faezah showed interest to everything that Yusry said. Such a fascinating guy, thought Faezah. Yusry told her that he was a in a car business. ‘Really? Wow, this must be my lucky day, I wanted to buy a car. Nothing too expensive but as long as it can take me anywhere, I’m all for it.’ she said. ‘Well, you found the right guy.’ said Yusry, smiling as he take a sip of his drink. He could see that Faezah is starting to fall hard on him. As planned.
* * * * * * * *
Faezah woke up with the haze above her head. ‘Ugh, my head.’ She complaint. The sound of chain clinking together does not do any good to her head. Later, she notices that her hands were cuffed and her feet were chained to the bed post. ‘Morning sunshine, sleep well last night?’ asked Yusry as he light his cigarette. ‘Yusry, what’s all this?’ asked Faezah, showing her cuffed hands, confused. He let out a cold laugh. He walks toward the bed and sat beside her. His hands lingered around her soft skin, then he swept her strands of hair away from her face, making Faezah starting to feel uneasy. ‘What are you doing? Yusry, what’s going on? What this? Why are you doing this?’ Faezah starting to shoot questions like bullets. Yusry gave a chuckled ‘Sweetheart, do you really think….you know what, never mind. Let just get this over with.’ said Yusry, smiling and gave her a meaning look. ‘Get it over with what? Yusry, you’re scaring me.’ ‘Don’t worry, it won’t hurt as much as the others had, I’ll be gentle with you. I’ll do it as slow as a turtle walks.’ He chuckled as he open a bag on the table. In the bag, there were grenades and a rifle. Then, he was holding an object that cannot be unidentified by Faezah. ‘Don’t you dare touching me, Yusry or I’ll scream!’ threatened Faezah. ‘Scream for all you want my love’, he said as he came towards her. ‘No, please.’ begged Faezah. Yusry ignored her and did what he did best.
Yusry watched Faezah sleep peacefully like an angel besides him, soundless. Such a naïve brave young girl to trust a criminal, thought Yusry as he played with her hair. But she didn’t know that. And Yusry was this charming clever lad who would smile to every woman that he met and for that, they would face death. He lured them into his web with just an interesting conversation plus a gentleman attitude as the women fell in love with him completely, he would do what he did best.
* * * * * * * * *
Faezah met Yusry when she was dining alone for lunch at a restaurant 4 month ago. Yusry was only a table away. She did notice he was gazing in her way when she gave back a positive response to him. She smiled and Yusry headed for her table. ‘Hi, may I sit here?’ Yusry asked. ‘Sure, go ahead’, she answered, smiling. Faezah was checking out his features as he sat. His face was boyish with a nice high check bones and his body was muscular too. He must be ‘the working out guy’, thought Faezah. ‘I’m Yusry from Tenom, Sabah.’ Yusry said with a smile as he held his hand out for her. ‘I’m Faezah, from Kuala Lumpur. You are from Tenom, Sabah? Why, that such a long way down. Business?’ She asked as she took his inviting hand. ‘Kind of.’ Yusry smiled. They talked about lot of things over their lunch. Faezah showed interest to everything that Yusry said. Such a fascinating guy, thought Faezah. Yusry told her that he was a in a car business. ‘Really? Wow, this must be my lucky day, I wanted to buy a car. Nothing too expensive but as long as it can take me anywhere, I’m all for it.’ she said. ‘Well, you found the right guy.’ said Yusry, smiling as he take a sip of his drink. He could see that Faezah is starting to fall hard on him. As planned.
* * * * * * * *
Faezah woke up with the haze above her head. ‘Ugh, my head.’ She complaint. The sound of chain clinking together does not do any good to her head. Later, she notices that her hands were cuffed and her feet were chained to the bed post. ‘Morning sunshine, sleep well last night?’ asked Yusry as he light his cigarette. ‘Yusry, what’s all this?’ asked Faezah, showing her cuffed hands, confused. He let out a cold laugh. He walks toward the bed and sat beside her. His hands lingered around her soft skin, then he swept her strands of hair away from her face, making Faezah starting to feel uneasy. ‘What are you doing? Yusry, what’s going on? What this? Why are you doing this?’ Faezah starting to shoot questions like bullets. Yusry gave a chuckled ‘Sweetheart, do you really think….you know what, never mind. Let just get this over with.’ said Yusry, smiling and gave her a meaning look. ‘Get it over with what? Yusry, you’re scaring me.’ ‘Don’t worry, it won’t hurt as much as the others had, I’ll be gentle with you. I’ll do it as slow as a turtle walks.’ He chuckled as he open a bag on the table. In the bag, there were grenades and a rifle. Then, he was holding an object that cannot be unidentified by Faezah. ‘Don’t you dare touching me, Yusry or I’ll scream!’ threatened Faezah. ‘Scream for all you want my love’, he said as he came towards her. ‘No, please.’ begged Faezah. Yusry ignored her and did what he did best.
* * * * * * * * *
After a long hour of the torturing scene, the making of the film is finally come to the end. ‘That’s a wrap!’ the director shouted to the crew. Everyone is cheering and clapping. ‘You did good, Siti. It was really convincing and hey, definitely an award for you.’ the director said to Siti. ‘Thanks Mr. Wong. I couldn’t have done it without your help.’ Siti said as he shakes the director’s hand. The director walks away from Siti to his producer to discuss about his next movie. ‘Its about a country that has no money to solve war against the plague that’s been carried by a giant mosquitoes. Yes, I know and I want to make….’ they trailed off.
After a long hour of the torturing scene, the making of the film is finally come to the end. ‘That’s a wrap!’ the director shouted to the crew. Everyone is cheering and clapping. ‘You did good, Siti. It was really convincing and hey, definitely an award for you.’ the director said to Siti. ‘Thanks Mr. Wong. I couldn’t have done it without your help.’ Siti said as he shakes the director’s hand. The director walks away from Siti to his producer to discuss about his next movie. ‘Its about a country that has no money to solve war against the plague that’s been carried by a giant mosquitoes. Yes, I know and I want to make….’ they trailed off.
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Haha, we were supposed to present this in front of the class but I was to embarrassed to read my own, this one, so instead I asked my groupmate to read it and she screwed up. It was supposed to be read smoothly, with the right tone and all, but hey no one's perfect right? and I don't even had the guts to read it, so it's a no win situation. huhu. :]
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Out and about
yesterday, went out with the girls to Time Square, have fun watching movie, The Proposal. it was hilariously hilarious!! hah! totally, if you want to watch a movie, go and watch it on the big screen. always the best. and the frontest row wasn't all bad. no, seriously! you don't have to worry if you are going to offend your neighbours with your annoying laugh or something. changed my perception about the frontest row and never will i say no for them. hek3.
then we went shopping, bought this little black dress and new pair of flops and a blue hoodie sweater. took pictures and played with the lift. 1 thing we havent got to do was karaoke. too expensive la! haih.
nonetheless, we girls have fun. call it the single ladies day out? hahaha. desperate. but it's fun, feeling all normal and living. yeah, i'm just that abnormal, but i got to say, being single rocks! the girls are always complaining about their bf don't allowed this and that, like what? no string attached yet but already all that? thanks but no thanks. im fine by myself. no need you to take care of me. i might complaint bout it a few times but hey, im only human.
hmm, what else, ohh, went back at 10 pm, reach home almost midnight. jammed like hell! thank God for not driving or someone might sleep in the hospital that night. huh. bus is the best transport yet. but i didn't went back to my house, crash at the girls rent house. for the first time, well the house, was...ok? haha, what to expect, Rumah Anak Dara. hehe.
that's all for my wonderful normal weekend. here are some pictures to share. :]
then we went shopping, bought this little black dress and new pair of flops and a blue hoodie sweater. took pictures and played with the lift. 1 thing we havent got to do was karaoke. too expensive la! haih.
nonetheless, we girls have fun. call it the single ladies day out? hahaha. desperate. but it's fun, feeling all normal and living. yeah, i'm just that abnormal, but i got to say, being single rocks! the girls are always complaining about their bf don't allowed this and that, like what? no string attached yet but already all that? thanks but no thanks. im fine by myself. no need you to take care of me. i might complaint bout it a few times but hey, im only human.
hmm, what else, ohh, went back at 10 pm, reach home almost midnight. jammed like hell! thank God for not driving or someone might sleep in the hospital that night. huh. bus is the best transport yet. but i didn't went back to my house, crash at the girls rent house. for the first time, well the house, was...ok? haha, what to expect, Rumah Anak Dara. hehe.
that's all for my wonderful normal weekend. here are some pictures to share. :]
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
NEW!!
Assalamuailakum dan salam sejahtera... boohoo! wow, it's been awhile since like, what, forever? someone been asking why... well've been busy and laptopless... sigh. but now, i own my laptop [last time was mum's, for the record..] hehe, just the way i like it. got it from the recent PC fair, well not sony viao like planned but better and cheaper? heh. with broadband and all, i'm all set! here are pictures to share. Jangan cemburu ya. [yeah, let's not ruin our bahasa Malaysia] :]
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Happy Mom's Day.
to all whom concerned...guess.
haha. doesn't look like her at all. it's like its something wrong[its the mouth!] and it is my way of drawing her. first attempt. my bad. better next time. i promise. happy mom's day, umi. We all love you deeply tho we always in wreck 4 u. :]
Friday, May 1, 2009
John Pollock in action
TADA!
he's only 2 years old anyway. what do you expect? Van Gogh?
i am such a lousy art teacher. haha. :]
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Let see if it's true.
i think it is time to show what have i learned for the past 2 sems of my art course. see if its worth it. hah.
sem I: kerja kursus berasaskan ilmu pend seni visual II
sem I: kerja kursus berasaskan ilmu pend seni visual I
sem I: lanskap menggunakan pelbagai media
media: poster colour
sem II: sketches still life alatan sukan
teknik grid & teknik tetingkap
pelbagai jenis garisan
sem II: lukisan pelbagai teknik, garisan dan jalinan dengan menggunakan pelbagai media kering.
blok cetakan
sem II: blok cetakan dan test print.
catan untuk ujian amali
catan yang telah dibingkaikan
cetakan: mine is at bottom right.
sem II: catan dan cetakan untuk ujian amali yang akan dinilai oleh pemantau luar untuk moderasi markah.
pergh! so this is it. actually there's a lot of other things but tgk yang best je la...yang x jadi tu x payah la... and i love the nemo i drew, that drawing took like forever, the background, the seaweed thing is totally killing me to finish it... the drawing, alas, x finish pon. my nature to do things half way. it's not like dapat markah pon. and that catan...first time using acrylics and on canvas...oh yeah, im excited. whatever. but that wasn't so bad right? still acceptable and has its own aesthetical value ritee? i considered it as my birthday present for myself. i'm so proud of it because i'm was able to finish it on time and get decent grades for both with cetakan. and all turn out good in the end. all the hard work paid. ohh, i've done my kerja kursus pendek on designing kulit buku program for IPGM KAMPUS ILMU KHAS JUBLI EMAS KE-50, first time using adobe photoshop, i nailed it! haha.
so can i still convinced myself that i am an art person? hmm.
bajet jer! :]
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