Twiligt movie, books and series...I want more!

Oh how a big fan I am of the books! I still remember the first time I read the book, it was Twilight... it was indescribably amazing. I've read it hundreds of times and never ever get tired of it. Edward is a perfect imagination of a man and Bella is just so human with the right responses upon the right circumstances. Both are made for each other. Stephanie Meyer really have created a story that everyone are dying hard to be in. I would lie if I say 'not for me'. Everyone is talking about it and now a movie? It's going to be huge and it's just going to be enormously HUGE! But, would it disappointed the fans if the movie didn't worked out as planned? We'll see at the end of the year.

Edward. What more could a girl wants if you have Edward? He's got everything or not. But I would definitely go for the thrilling and all those dangerous moments. Despite that he is a vampire, supposedly to be strong, tough and ruthlessly cruel in killing humans, he is rather seems vulnerable, emotionally when it comes to Bella. I just love the way he being too cautious around her, try not to break her and so. He is a dream man and I bet nobody would resist him if he is exactly according to how Meyer describe it. I wouldn't mind having him, so what if he is a vampire? It's just going to make my days interesting and....yeah, like it would happen in real life. But minus the mind reading tho, you don't want to know what is in my mind and me too. So, being different like Bella is a definitely plus. And I think Edward loves Bella because she is a human and there's fresh red blood pumping warmth under her pale skin that attracts him the most. Maybe that's why he wants Bella to stay human because he sees her as a very beautiful human, so fragile and so different. It would change everything if Bella ever change. But then again, it would be hard for both of them. I can't wait for the outcome for the end of this stories by Meyer. Will she be changed or not. So, the movie, I was reluctant at first to accept this, like you would care hmm, because after this Edward would be Robert Pattinson. Ok, here's the thing, we all know Edward is extraordinary in every aspect of life but we never really knew how exactly he looks like and I'm pretty sure everyone has their own 'Edward' self in their head and me too. I have fun time thinking about it, recreate a face, figure and try to picture him as a real person in real life but now, Edward is Robert Pattinson. Ok, I wasn't against the movie, I think the movie it a great thing but it just got me thinking, Edward would be Robert Pattinson. Physically. How many times have I said it?

Bella. I really love Bella. I think she is a perfect human girl, a perfect teenage girl. What? I love her right responses to her environment. So human. She's rather clumsy but that's just seems normal to me. Sometimes it's hard to keep everything in control, like not to trip in front of boys and so, I guess Bella didn't have to work 'hard' to get boys. Yes, boy's'. In the end, she's got Edward without even trying. Maybe with her clumsiness, hey, it's works for her. Often being a target to danger, I guess Bella needs Edward and Edward needs Bella to soothe his loneliness after all the years. I have to say this again, I like Bella, it's how Meyer describes her, you know, she don't have to be the It girl or even a model look-alike. She's described as just a normal girl that comfortable wearing jeans and t-shirt, no need to be excessive, just that. I would say I wanna be like her, despite of everything. She is different in a lot of ways with a little sarcastic, she knows how to have her ways with Edward, often absent-minded, and probably can get away with anything. All she needs to be is brave, blushed as scarlet and bet on her life for her love ones. It's good and bad enough for Edward. LOL. But it seems the relationship is rather complicated( just the way I love it), like Bella would sacrifice anything for Edward even her life, how Edward still afraid that he can't control his hunger around Bella and insist if Bella wants to walk away and forget him, how other people revolve around them, the bad vampires and the differences among species, how she has to choose and how Bella wants to be one but Edward refuse? So many of them. Complication after complication. That's what makes them as a couple really interesting. And I really love the way Edward 'takes control' of Bella. In ways that is. Despite of being a good vampire, there's still a bit of predator needs left inside of him, makes him really desirable? Check out the meadow parts. My favorite. How I wish it was me. Heh. :]

Blog, blogger, blogging.

Today I've read something about blog, you know how it would become the next big media source and how blog would cause disaster among humans? Just by a word about someone or something, you going to get trouble if you 'touch' the sensitive parts.

I was a little offended by the report saying that blogs that contain useless information and created just for fun is just trash. I mean, for example like me, I joined this blog because I have so much to say about something, anything. From the littlest thing until the most powerful thing in the world, if I have a say for it, I want to write it down and save the text I've wrote. Because I would read those thoughts of mine again and thinking how lame it is and just have a laugh out of it. Yes, I always does that. So, I don't really care if people won't read my 'trash' because we have the right to choose. It's my blog and it's your judgement against your right and wrong. Or like or not. See through it. :]

Connection

Why the other families has to be such a fussy nuisance ? Not your own family, is it your aunt's family or your dad's cousin's and etc.? Well mine is my biggest pet peeve ever. Didn't they ever know or even heard about the word 'privacy'? Is it that hard not to follow us around every time, I mean every time? Anywhere we are, there's them. Sucks la. They don't think about anyone but their selves. It's not like we're in movie where the plot was undeniably complicated and pack with stupid drama. It could be a hell lot easier and we all could have a simpler life. What a drag.

I really hate it. But what I like the most is when mum take action. Ouch, it's so bad and somebody gonna get hurt big time. Or not because they were stupid enough to get it right away. Dumb ass. Hahahaha. I'm talking about someone who 'may' be related to me and I do feel good about it. After all they've done to my mum for all these years, those so called family members deserve a wake up call and God has shown them the way. What an ironic life. What goes around comes around, eh? Sooner or later. :]

The real thing

Mr. Razi is simply an amazing person and definitely a great teacher of the driving school that I went to have my driving lessons. He-who-is-name-shall-not-be-mention on the other hand was unexpectedly been a helpful in the process. I will never forget both of them for the kind of opposite personalities they've shown me. They let me see the real world. Anyone who is desprately need help on how to control a car, you can find Mr. Razi at Imkeda Au3. With him, anything is possible. You gotta trust me on this!

OMG. I just realize this. Turning 18 means I have to be responsible for my own self, my action and my life? Oh, that's almost sounds scary, to me. Yeah, I'm probably not ready for that. Now I can't say anything sarcastically insulting :P and get away with it. Haha. So much of being an adult trouble. Well, I'll try to keep surviving. In the mean time, let's see if I can like you like you like me or the other way around. :]

Unexpected

Everyone hate to admit defeated. Even me. So, let's fight to death.

Oh. I passed my drive test today. First attempt. It was freakishly hard but every minutes of it was worth it. The officer was kinda feisty, especially the women. Ooooh, you really can't mess up with them, not don't want, but can't. You'll see your life flash before your eyes and you can say goodbye to on getting a driving licence, at least for that day. There's always a second chance, hmm? But not for me. I've passed and I'm going to drive! Haha. What such a big deal I make out of it. I told you it wasn't easy and even I don't expect to pass both or pass anything at all. So many flaws and I almost lost my mind and out of breath to almost die. Literally. But I did it and I was proud of myself.

I've failed once, big time on the most important thing of my insignificant life. I broke my parent's heart and mine. The people were so cruel enough to make a fun out of me because of it. I guess it got me thinking. I make a promise to myself that I WILL NOT FAIL ANYTHING ELSE in my future. I'll make sure everything work according to plan. I know its going to be so hard but I'll try to get by. No, I'll get by. 'Fail' will not be in my life vocabulary anymore, well at least it stays on the tip of my lips. For the sake of myself and for my mum. Only god knows how much I love her. She is my everything. Everything I do, it was always her. Mummy's girl. I am and I don't care. I love her with all my heart. I don't think I could ever love anyone like I love her. Sorry boys. Mum comes first. :]

(My dad brought me a present today for my 18th birthday....suprise, suprise....hmm, its scary!)

Newborn

Hey, hey people. Lol. Like you would read this anyway, well I would. Lame. I know. Anyway, I'm kinda new and this is the first. So, here it goes....

So, yesterday was my birthday, my 18th birthday.But I don't feel happy. Don't we supposed to feel happy on the '18th birthday', the day when you are legal enough to do things that illegal to you for the past 17 years of misery? Ok, minus 5 years for a memorable and fun childhood. So, 12 years of misery. Afraid of getting old? I think for this range of age, maturity. No, it's not that. I dunno why, I don't feel like celebrating it and I supposed it's just me. Typical me. Making something out of nothing. Well, it sure feel better to let it all out. One question tho, can we actually blog our feelings? It got me thinking.... :]